At the moment I awoke at 6am. Like another Monday, I rushed to get out of the home by 6:30am to start my two hour commute from Washington Crossing, PA to New York Metropolis.  I grabbed a big cup of espresso & jumped on the NJ Transit categorical.  As caffeine washed away the remnants of morning grogginess, my heart-rate quickened with rising anticipation. At the moment was not like another Monday.  At the moment was the day I’ve been desirous about for 3 years- the day I get to stop my company desk job to pursue my entrepreneurial goals.

For 2 years, I had hustled to create a stable basis to my start-up whereas sustaining a full-time place as an operations analyst at a hedge fund.  I had rigorously crafted a good exit technique from the corporate and even lined up an gratifying part-time place at a neighborhood vineyard to ease the monetary burden of quitting.  But, the thought of strolling into my boss’s workplace at present at hand in my resignation was turning my abdomen inside out.

Most entrepreneurs are over-achievers, and regardless of our overwhelming need to exit on our personal, the thought of quitting runs counter to our go-getter cores.  To not point out the “small” issues operating by our minds like paying the payments, getting medical health insurance, & funding a enterprise.  We’ve got spent months deflecting the unfavorable, usually under-handed feedback from associates & household who imagine our entrepreneurial goals are silly. We’re self assured, inventive, and able to take life by storm. But there I used to be with my sweaty palms and coronary heart racing.

It was 3pm as I sat in my cubicle gathering up braveness to make the leap.  For 4 years, I had labored my tail off at this firm with the intention to be acknowledged as a worthwhile asset.  Regardless of the lengthy hours of monotonous work, I had been rewarded handsomely.  Now at 25 years outdated, I used to be about to stroll away from all of it to begin over.  It was simple to make excuses to delay the duty at hand. I stored my eyes centered on the pc monitor with the intention to keep away from a guilt-ridden look at my coworkers.  After numerous hours of working side-by-side I thought-about them shut associates, and the considered having deceived them made me uncomfortable.

4pm rolled round; time was operating out, and there I sat, glued to my chair.  It was then that I clearly pictured getting residence Monday night time, upset & ashamed that I had let worry maintain me again yet another day from following for my goals. This picture propelled my shaky legs straight into my boss’s workplace the place I firmly proclaimed I used to be leaving the corporate.

As quickly as I handed the hurdle of telling my boss & coworkers, I felt rejuvenated and able to transfer ahead with my large plans.  Nevertheless, beneath the enjoyment & aid I couldn’t assist however really feel just a little embarrassed for having allowed myself to get so distracted.  Second-guessing was not a attribute of my self-persona because the assured, fearless entrepreneur. What I spotted at present, although, is that it’s okay. It’s okay to get scared; it’s even okay to briefly lose focus.  The distinction is- we, as younger entrepreneurs, don’t let that cease us. We stand up, goals in hand, stroll into the workplace, & stop.

Tina Paparone is the co-founder & CEO of the distinctive reward firm BeMe, which creates merchandise to encourage women to embrace their individuality.